I saw you!. ah! *blushing*

Currently Listening to: YELLOW by COLDPLAY

I am looking for the sign that makes it stop thinking and longing about you. Yeah, I don’t know if you know all these crazy things I am doing. It seems I don’t care people around. I don’t care what other people may say.

I might break the rules.

Now, tell me what shall I do with these? My mind sets on you. This is holy crazy to think how someone like me to feel this way for you…

and who are you anyway? someone who holds a tie with someone whom you don’t want to cry?. Why does she cry? It’s because someday if time allows, grabbing the great chance to come near each other and utter things for love? and if time permits you will let me come into you and neglect her?


I can’t. I am holding my conscience on that. I am not allowing that happen. But you know what? I am still hardly thinking about that even now, if I have to give up certain thing to win you.

You feel for me I know. I can see it in your eyes but words are left to be unspoken these times. Surviving the idea of pretending we mean nothing.

Tell me what shall I do? Do you think it’s my turn now to win you?

I can’t resist this feeling. You complete my days and that’s it, only this blog knows everything.

But for the least part of this, the only key for you to know every thing that this crazy thing can do to you is through reading constantly my posts..

But do you read them?



I am still patiently hoping one day you will do.

try this

Currently Listening to: LOVE SONG by 311


http://www.crush007.com/love.cgi?id=1125452269wfd. Very nice.

hmmm

Why VERY INTELLIGENT Men Fail with Women?

I got very interested with the Reason No. 2.

It reminds me of a person who doesn't own the smartest mind in the world but heck! he got me! Bahaha.... Yeah..I like his styles of winning me and that's the reason why I overlooked the other "smart-conceited-arrogant" guys in line. (did I say it in line?).

Yeah it's true and the most enchanting part of it that really makes me weak and fall, is the guy's sweetness.

The item no. 3 reminds me of someone who wants to improve his social SKILLS. hmmm maybe I'll help him boost on that.

Please Stay...

Currently Listening to: STAY by CUESHE

Don't leave this place.

I am asking you to stay.

S-H-A-D-O-W

I saw you looking at me for so many times.


*sigh* What is this? it seems you rule most of the posts I have for this blog.


Are you reading them?

fate?

Currently Listening To: IN MY PLACE by COLDPLAY

I don’t want to break someone’s heart. I am a girl. I know how it feels to be hurt. But why I am encouraging myself to take you away from her and come to me?

I know something is going on between us but I am stopping myself not to go beyond from it.

It hurts, trying to forget the one I have learned to love.

but I know it can be more hurting if I see someone’s crying helplessly because of me.

i don't wanna be fool again..

Love grows, love fades. My love for you had grown for years and faded for just a moment. Ironic isn’t it? I have saved the love I had for you for that entire long time and yet just a snap of seconds, it was gone.

I am no longer for you now. If before, we always thought and believed we can be forever together but look, I was the one who struck back everything. I can’t take anymore of the impossibilities that occurred before between us.

It is so impossible to take that commitment to continue.

and so I took it apart and we broke up.

I was no longer happy with my feelings. I know it’s my fault because you don’t know the entire reasons why until now…. just because it is so foolish if you ought to know all.

And now, all alone uncommitted. I am free. I can hang out with friends anywhere. It’s a happy feeling for me coz I find relief for myself.

but where are you now? I took some time to think about us. Memories we have shared, inspite and despite of all things, it was indeed worth remembering.

I just left myself smiling. I can’t say any words of the things we did for each other.

Now, I see you in my place. You emerged after long days of absence. It was a pleased day when we met. You smiled at me and talked nicely. But why I acted like I hate the world? why it seemed like I hate you that time?

I don’t feel at ease talking with you well like the way you did to me. I don’t know. I am so bad. We are not even good friends in the sense of bumping each other some time. We find it very awkward if once exchanging messages.


I am happy now, because I am happy with the little things my life can offer.

I only long simple things for myself. I am contented with just a little smile that paints in my face. I am satisfied about that.

I don’t expect too much for myself. Whatever God is giving me each day I am humbly accepting it.

If you would be asking why I find myself terrible when it comes of talking about you, Just purely because of this needed question “Why you didn’t try to save the treasure we kept for that long?”

God knows everything for me.

just like someone told me “I don’t hold the fate about us, maybe someone out there will be mine forever”

if you’re asking who is that “someone”?

*smile*

the purpose

Being a mentor is to encourage my students to excel in their fields. Whether they would throw words against me but what I am doing is my whole best for them.

I have hurling the idea about blogging. For me, blogging is one of the several mediums for me to express my thoughts. Everything and anything under the sun. Anything that inspires me anything that completes me.. it is just about anything.

Sharing the same things to my students gave them the idea on how to be free for their thoughts and words. I even recognize those people who are patiently posting in their blogs that somehow affect my life as a person, because some of them share the same experiences with mine which easily relate myself into.


Blogging for me, is my bestfriend.. yeah.. sort of my daily journal..I can’t live without this.. My fingers are already addicted to this. I even caught myself smiling while tinkering my keyboard coz I am thinking how people would react to these, and most especially assuming my intended person that for me hoping will read these posts.


It’s purely because, I am blabberring about the emotional and mushy side of my life. I don’t even try to rule the posts about academics and IT related stuffs coz I find it very boring.

With the hits I gained, for 6 months since the birth of this arena. I always believe my feelings are real and remarkable.

We have different tastes. If you have the blog, it is the freedom of the user to burst anything that she/he likes.

And yeah this would become our territory. But why?

why we sometimes forget to think of the consequences that will arise, after deeming what we’re doing is good and right?

That’s why it’s better to gamble myself postings about my life here coz I have the control. It is not that I am coward human but it is just that I don’t want to think of other people’s lives.

It is my attitude since my childhood that I don’t care with other peoples’ lives. I can’t even point much exactly if I found myself annoyed with someone, though I am used to figure them out through here but still I have this notion of why-care-about-them-I-am-just-wasting-my-time.


But in the end. I still remain patient.

Where are you?

Currently Listening to : CAN'T LET YOU GO by CUESHE

I miss you the moment I don't see your face. Where are you now?

Hoping later we will see each other. Too silly to say but you complete my day.

Thanks for bringing the colors to me though it would be so hard for you to recognize it.

we talked

Yeah we talked. It was a very rare chance that we got to talked each other "accidentally" .

and I see something delightful for me when I heard something you said pertaining to me.

Hmm. I want more signs. More signs that attest to it.

there you are again

If you accidently read my blog now, this post is all way for you. Yeah, remember last friday? the event at the Forest Hill Resort? *if you get my hints perhaps you know what I mean*, that was the time you showed me the way to feel for you.

I am referring to someone who will be reading this post now.

My_Photography

I was so bored in our class so I took the chance to have this.

Just can't explain why I feel this way.


It seems love strikes me again.


*sigh* that again!

you've got to find what you love..

Steve Jobs says. I am very much impressed with his speech. I wish I could be as strong as he is.