i don't wanna be fool again..

Love grows, love fades. My love for you had grown for years and faded for just a moment. Ironic isn’t it? I have saved the love I had for you for that entire long time and yet just a snap of seconds, it was gone.

I am no longer for you now. If before, we always thought and believed we can be forever together but look, I was the one who struck back everything. I can’t take anymore of the impossibilities that occurred before between us.

It is so impossible to take that commitment to continue.

and so I took it apart and we broke up.

I was no longer happy with my feelings. I know it’s my fault because you don’t know the entire reasons why until now…. just because it is so foolish if you ought to know all.

And now, all alone uncommitted. I am free. I can hang out with friends anywhere. It’s a happy feeling for me coz I find relief for myself.

but where are you now? I took some time to think about us. Memories we have shared, inspite and despite of all things, it was indeed worth remembering.

I just left myself smiling. I can’t say any words of the things we did for each other.

Now, I see you in my place. You emerged after long days of absence. It was a pleased day when we met. You smiled at me and talked nicely. But why I acted like I hate the world? why it seemed like I hate you that time?

I don’t feel at ease talking with you well like the way you did to me. I don’t know. I am so bad. We are not even good friends in the sense of bumping each other some time. We find it very awkward if once exchanging messages.


I am happy now, because I am happy with the little things my life can offer.

I only long simple things for myself. I am contented with just a little smile that paints in my face. I am satisfied about that.

I don’t expect too much for myself. Whatever God is giving me each day I am humbly accepting it.

If you would be asking why I find myself terrible when it comes of talking about you, Just purely because of this needed question “Why you didn’t try to save the treasure we kept for that long?”

God knows everything for me.

just like someone told me “I don’t hold the fate about us, maybe someone out there will be mine forever”

if you’re asking who is that “someone”?

*smile*