Wednesday, June 29, 2005

"philippines is now a hell"

I have chatted a pinoy living entirely in the United States over YIM, and he blasted a creepy line of text saying "philippines is now a hell", I didn't react towards those words he just roared about, instead I opted to another topic to avert his attention... and he followed sending me a more horrible line of text saying "philippines is dead, people have no future now, why not stay away from there and live your life here? why stay long in a such an ugly place sneaking with those lame officials?"

and I only said " i still love "OUR" country, I want to build my future here no matter what".

When you love the person... stay no matter what.. and if the love means to make you happy and would take you away from them then, one should possess the heart to understand.. not to be selfish and not to be unfair.

love has factors: consistent communication is important and trust for each other otherwise it's not definitely love.

now you know I halted my intention to communicate with you and the trust is no more, that only means my love is dead for you...

but if you mean to ask a second chance, let me ask the love to lead it back to me, into my heart, so that you deserve the chance to prove what you have not proven.

and for the "philippines"? this will be my unending love for my country, just no matter what, for as long as there is love that fires within, still it deserves the chances to prove what it hasn't proven.

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

not my back, of course

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yeah, that is angelina jolie with her enchanting tattoo at the back. Heck! tattoo has never been my option to slap onto my skin. :P

Sunday, June 26, 2005

concept and design - what comes first?

One day, I was with my two students to help them create a concept and how to design such presentation for the said event in our school.

I gave them the assignment one week before the event day to prepare, and when I asked one of them to let us see the output on the day before the event, I was not contented of what they did to the presentation knowing both of them are skilled with the said application.

and so I asked them why they created that kind of effortless presentation and they uttered “it was hard for us to create a concept, we don’t have an exact concept for that event”.
and I was thinking, for how long would you be able to create a concept for such a very small event?

and I told them “ I am not satisfied, I was expecting bit less with what you have proved to me before and considering one week is too short for you, but this one is not even a presentation to be viewed. You gave me the least part of it. Go ! you still have hours to make a new one, tomorrow is the day”

so they paused for a while and fired an answer “we don’t know if we can make it at this hours left, we still have a defense tomorrow afternoon and we should have to prepare for it”

the root cause is they don’t have the confident to show me their concept.

design follows from the concept.

that is, if the software’s design is too huge to agree that it has a terrific design (physical design) but then the logic of the program is nothing in it. It is still a lame application, a useless product.

and so I told them my concept that I urgently formulate out of that minutes we talked and after I have injected all to them of what I can think about it, they asked me “ can you join with us so that we can make it?”

so that’s it, without any delay I nodded and agreed to come with them to create a new one and finish it.

I was just trying to help out. I know there are some instances people are looking for help from you. Some times you are important for them to make the things finish and to settle them fine.

so we hurriedly went to their house and we left the three of us witnessing the “lame” presentation as we all said it was and after that we discussed the new very “simple” concept, I say it simple because to count, only 18 hours left before it blasts on screen with all the audience around anticipating for it.

I know that a 5-second great and detailed presentation can be achieved after weeks of lurking with it during the creation, how much more with the 3-minute alloted time for the our presentation, but this time, 18 hours could only make a sheer outcome to change the previous lame one.

still we should consider the impression or comments of the new people. first impression should last this time.

while one of them was doing all the mouse-on-the-right-hand-and-shorcut-keys-maneuvers-with-the-keyboard-on-the-left-hand, I was with his side observing his actions.

He has the skills how to use it but, what is skills if you don’t know the rationale of one’s desired crop. What is skills if you don’t formulate what to output?

While we’re staying for hours in their house, they asked me if I am contented with my work?.

They are not sure what to become after they will graduate. Knowing two of them are best in their field, one is in programming and multimedia and the other one is solely in multimedia.

and I thrown them a question instead of answering, “why’d you asked?”

“because we don’t know where to go after, we are not satisfied of what our country could offer when it comes to compensation” they explained.

they want a BIG compensation.

how can you get that BIG compensation where in the first place you cannot even try to produce an idea how to accomplish your task with good outcome to be presented in your boss for you to be rewarded BIG?

and I told them. “it depends upon your choice, I have my choice and I am working with it. And whatever your choice is do the best out of it and learned to love from it or else you’ll regret it.”

“you choose it then live with it. and during the process in doing up your choice you are making up your mind to any opportunities that would come, but still you have to make a choice with it. That’s why life is a choice.” I smiled.

I know both of them are financially stable as far as their family lives are concerned. and knowing the parents of the other one is living abroad since he’s 7 years old still he doesn’t know where to go after.

He doesn’t want to be an employee… he wants to be a boss… he even thought of putting up an IT firm or an IT school…

Well, dreaming is free but he’s serious about it.

To cut this story, I went home and they continued to finish it, they spent the rest of the hours to do it, and at last they did it… they have finished it.

and after the presentation we’re all enjoyed and people were enjoyed and were amazed. and that’s because of them.

that’s why during the event I gave the floor to recognize them infront of many people around the auditorium for the effort they have done.

They’re happy.

and the BIG smiles I saw from their faces is enough for me to be happy too.

Saturday, June 18, 2005

Mr. and Mrs. Smith

Hahahaha.. All i want is the uncut version of it. *grin*

anyway, the movie was hot especially for angelina jolie. Well, i just love her body so much.

hahaha, if in case you haven't notice. hmmm Brad Pitt really got this "desire" hahaha what i mean is, he has an undeniable attraction with Angelina.. Just the way he looks at her you know.

so obvious...

If happens you didn't, watch it again.

do you?



do you ask somebody to show sympathy on you?

So why bother asking me about it?
I am aware with what's happening with you

Monday, June 13, 2005

sh*t

just a minute ago. I had a very horrible encounter with a devil. Just imagine how that devil can't understand what "please" word means?

Yeah, I know he's a devil and that devil turned out to be the loathesome specie ever lived.

I thought that devil was at first oh-so-kind-and-gentle-in-nature but when I was beginning to peel out that devil's true skin, there revealed that devil's true demonic creature growling inside.

As the bible says, "talking to a nonsense people will make you more nonsense" is just like "talking to a devil makes you more than just a LUCI".

Yeah. Now i have learned not to easily get dealt with someone who owns the most monstrous image inside.

But sometimes, you are blind. You thought you're alive but then you're soul is being crucified through the devil's words.

It's my damn mistake of treating that devil kindly at first.

Because I really thought that devil was like me at least, for being kind enough to show respect.

Monday, June 06, 2005

dreaming is free



I want to belong to this group someday.

Playing this instrument:

and I am hardly dreaming for it :(

Masterpiece

Currently Listening to : MASTERPIECE by Atlantic Starr

A simple touch of your hand,
And everything is right.
The gentle way you look at me,
When we kiss goodnight.
You've given me the freedom
no other love has known
And now I thank you boy , thank you boy

The countless ways you've touched my heart
Is more than I can say
The beauty that you've shown to me
takes my breath away
A picture perfect painting,
that's what our love is
And yes I need you so,
and now I know

Chorus:

ooooh
I've found a masterpiece in you
a work of art it's true
And I treasure you my love
ooooh
I've found a masterpiece in you
a work of art it's true
And I treasure you

Sometimes I wonder what I'd be
Had I not found you
A least and lonely soul this world
could show me nothing new
But now my life's a canvas
painted with your love
And it will always be
And now I see

The gentle walks together
Through time will never pass
This fairy tale we shared
is real inside our hearts
let it be forever
never let it end
this promise I can make
Heaven is ours to take

Repeat chorus

When I'm lost and insecure
you build me up and make me sure
that everything will be alright
My love

Repeat chorus

(This fairy tale we're sharing
is real inside our hearts
Let it be forever
never let it end)


*do read between the lines... very meaningful*

I am CHAD

This one proves that I am gentle, silent, kind and thoughtful which definitely true. Yikes!

Sunday, June 05, 2005

I am BACK

Currently Listening to : SWEETEST SIN by Jessica Simpson

I watched Wade Robson Project indeed he is a great dancer. Heck! I can't afford not to watch it every weekend.

Nothing's really new to me today. I am not in the good mood.

Friday, June 03, 2005

Retreat

I am at the Mall with friends.. Just came back from our retreat at somewhere in Kidapawan (in which my ever first time to get in there). The place (retreat house) is ok... It's so cold at night. It's raining for two consecutive nights.

Being the youngest one in the group (we're all 20+ i think) and I tell you I really had a great time with them. I don't really stick to one's group conversation especially if they are not that my close friends or shall we say they-are just-there-laughing-around and hey these people are so old enough to be called as my mom and dad and mind you they are so funny to the max (napakingkoy talaga nila)


well, what got me with that event is, I had a great chance to make myself away from the city and away from work (that's why exactly how it called "retreat") and what made it more meaningful and unforgettable is the moments we're together and have chitchats...


We were like going into an overnight stay in the beach and even thought of talking so hard until morning but well, the lights will die at 10:00PM and we should perhaps follow the rules.

In our group we're 3 girls and 5 guys and we thought of getting some drinks (SMB ones hehehe) but it was too far away to buy, so we ended up surviving with coffee (ewww!)


Hahaha. I can't forget this. I really had a great time so much especially during our departure where in we're doing all the crazy things around... hahaha

This is the only retreat event where in we burst our vacant time to get noisy.

and we found a snake, a cobra and we all got scared especially the old ones.

Php 38/hour

for who the hell would care to eat this expensive inet rate in davao? I don't know why they impose such price like that?