it's because of whoever you are

It's been a long time now since the creation of this blog, the ultimate reason is I want to talk about anything technically or emotionally (?) well, what's the sense of blogging anyway?

I used to comprehend from time to time of what could induces me this year from physically to emotionally. Even while I am commuting there are things banging my mind and think about my future.

For 24 years, I begun to ask myself "Am I ready to settle down?". What took me so long of establishing a very new and happy family? What if my boyfriend will ask for a marriage as early after two years of being committed?

Then I remained saying I don't know.

Regardless of my young age and financial stability, the point here is I am not yet emotionally stable. There are still cases of simmering my attention to somebody which led me to admit I am not that "totally" faithful. I say it "totally" because if you see no one and adore no one but your loved one until the end of time you will take it as the manner of being "totally" faithful.

I know. I know it's normal. Maybe these are temptations for me to avoid. But what if this temptation can also offer happiness for me? I mean I am not talking to a sort of "physical contact" but rather falling or attracting someone. What if this will happen?

I don't know, maybe if these will come into existence that's the time for me to know and choose the right way for me to be happy and achieve what I want to achieve with no uncertainties.