I knew why

I received a call from you informing me that you gonna come to our house to get something. As abrupt demand, you didn’t take that call to give me signal before hand so that I can prepare myself facing you after long months of absence.

Why should I have to prepare? I am prepared and buried all the things already.

You came in and I see how you happily saw my parents and my sister. I am letting myself to shut up and do the things that I am doing and even wondering why you came? I am thinking of the moment you declined my parent’s invitation to join for a celebration and how my grandma wanted to see you that day and then you’re here for just to get something? that “something”?

I wasn’t talking much, I silently gave that “thing” coz I know that’s the only thing that’s left between us and you owned it. It must be yours and I already understand that. But the fact of showing me the reason is new to me.

You rushed and didn’t bother to eat and what I have prepared the foods for you were all useless but left myself to ate again. *just to grant a reason of my effort*


And now you’ve gone out of my sight, I begun to tell myself “You lied again” . I know the exact reason why you came in not because of the “thing”. My brain is still functioning perfectly and just the moment you gave me a call I already knew why.

but you refuse to say it, coz I know you. You are the person who used to hide things, and I respect you for that. I can do nothing about it and I don’t have any right to dig about it anymore.

Yeah, I do hide something but it’s no worth at all to let all these things to express. I know how terrible we part ways. We left questions unanswered it’s mainly because I refuse to talk about it before. I don’t want more explanation from both of us. We are letting things to fade and that’s it.


You’re dominating your pride, and you still didn’t change that.
God Bless you